Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Am I an atheist or more an Agnostic?

Now that I am meditating I am having all this questions in my head. I really can't say I don't believe beacause is not truth, I do believe in a lot of things I don't see. Forces for example are superior than me. Now I don't believe in a Eternal force, or superior being that control us or has an omniscient knowledge over us.
I could see other beings in the universe who can be superior than us as humans. Although I don't know if they exist I could say I could believe in the possibility .
I don't believe in any form of God, nor spirits, nor souls. I know there is energy and forces that are different than us as humans. I know evolution exists and is real. I can see also energy interacting with us. I know our brain is capable to do things we don't know of. I just don't think there is an esoteric world in where we can interact with others.
I could think that there is other dimension in which there are other beings, or actually I could think in another dimension in which there are gods or a god. But as I said that is just a fantasy or a believe.
What I know now is that I was living in a bubble of fantasy and dreams, now I am waking up to a different reality. this reality is just what I see. There is another world which is in my mind in which I can create anything I want, I can believe anything I want and make myself believe in. I could bring those internal thoughts in my real world and share it or saved just for me. That's what I am. My brain ( what I have learn and what I create) my feelings (which are just made of my early training in life and basic emotions in my genes) That is my reality.
The way I see the world can be through my senses or my emotions. Either case I can analyze it in the way I want to or let my pre-trained brain do it. That is what I am, just a mix of experiences plus my basic genealogical package.
What I believe is just what I want to believe, the reality is just what it is without anything else just matter.

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